wat am i doing with my life lolz
fading, so slow, black hole, i feel it slipping away
you’re lost, worn out, face down,
don’t know where you’re headed to
right here, right now, somehow i, i’ll light the way up for you
i would touch the sun, i’d come undone, it’s true
i’d fall for you
…i’ll follow you down…
9/25/11
“but nothing is the same, everyone moves on — and i resent that. i want you to stay here, with me. when i look at your lives going forward, i’m so envious and so blissfully ignorant of my own need to do the same. maybe someday, i’ll find the strength and courage to pick up these deadweight feet and take one small step forward, but for now…for now, my feet remain planted solidly in the ground, rooted, unwilling. and you look back and tell me to come with you, but i’d rather stay behind and keep you in my sight than move forward and risk losing you to an entirely different direction.”
